This is a really good article and I’m glad I stumbled onto it. I love your vivid honesty and your experiences are valid and deserved to be expressed. So much of what you wrote is my journey as well.
I probably marked up your article too much, but it really resonated with me. Don’t give up on God though. The church doesn’t define him. I’m certain there is much more to this mysterious story we are all a part of.
Be blessed!