I obviously don't know you, and I'm certainly not in your head reading your mind, but your story mirrors mine. Ultimately, what I discovered was I didn't lose my faith in an originator of all things (God). I lost my faith in church culture and denominational tradition as taught by naive church leaders. The telling clue in your story is when you share your disappointment when comparing your home Slovakian church to the one in Canada. Neither Christian culture has anything to do with the existence of God. The faith we lost was one of our own making.